Things get distorted here.Gotta look beyond the obvious

Don't act like you are care ,don't act you are cool casue you are not!

There is one things good for the people here.They are really good at acting/posing.Basically they get dissociated personality which means they are doing something beyond their culture/personality in to another form.They will act in different way to seek to reach their intension on something.

What they doing is not what they really believe underneath.Act nice just to take advantage of the others.Do something for the others just to make the others owe them something and need to offer back a favour.Promote some value to others just to make them do the same things as them.Copy things or learn from the others just to act cool and how smart they are in front to the others one.Just cut it all.Enough is enough!

Just like they always want the others to do the exact same things they have done to the others.They feel like they losing something after they have done something /they believe something but they can get it back elsewhere/or from the others.Come on ! What you believe doesn't means it do the same meaning to the others .Why the hell you think the others will do the same.If you are not happy with the things are going ,just take off ,don't bother to come .You are not welcome anyway.Keep the eyes open .Don't be self-centered .Do it nice or don't do it at all.

Whatever they are blind to see these .Maybe just me thinking in this way here!

I still believe in paradise ,but now at least I know its not someplace you can look for.It's not where you go.It's how you feel for a moment in your life.When you are a part of something.If you find that moment,It's last forever.I think I used to experience that in someplace else with someone elses .Unfountrately,the place cam never offer this concrete feelings tho.just some kind of dump shallow mind brain-washing and hectic life!

A bit chilling in the morning.Dry weather which i like the most.

Busy working day which i don't mind to be busy casue it make the god damn time here goes even faster and not necessary to sit around the people there and act like i am listening .Casue i seldom do.They are just talking normal shit like i get this and i get that .How much it look good and how much is yours look stupid .And always giving lesson to the others what to do to live their life and how to earn money and in what way.What to eat is regard as you have live the life once .How to score a chick and many imappropriate topics and sometimes speech to personal attack to bring the other's low self esteem and make them feel like shit they never be.Maybe thats the gene of this nations people.Serious of nothing,paranoid,hectic,rude.Self-centered and bragging about themselves etc .

Receive tons of call of work today.Mostly complain about some defects of the building work and stuff.The angry man in the phone just yell once i pick up the call.Foul language from the first sentences till the last words.Doesn't even get a chances to explain him somethings.And can't barely listen to his name at all casue he just bitching at the first place.Even request to something unreleavant like they get no common sense.I always believe that what i learn in books can't be applied in here cause the culture difference .Those textbook and reading material is written from western place base on their mind ,the way they think,the cool idea.Something feasible there mostly can't apply here.

For instance like "Customers are always right".Yes its true to listen the others request and do something to aim at their need.This idea is right and can be adapt in most of the place but definetly not people here.There is assumption of many theory and ideas.People there in western place or in some country that people get tolerant ,patiend ,rational,sane ,respect and this is the assumption in order to work this idea out.It's not gonna work here like the people believe they hold the money and they can be bossy and u have to take all the blame as a slave (with those personal attack word most of the fucking time ).That's what make them really feel how fancy and powerful they are and how small the others can be.That's part of their joy of living .That's why people like to study much here and get the chance to be rich and to be the person that can be bossy and "look big in this way " but not study becasue they like to contribute something or sophisicated to make things easy and better.Life in here just getting more and more unreal.Things grow like bubble but not sometime real.But it will blast oneday.

Ideas maybe the same elsewhere but applied to different soil and the way they doing it can be totally strange .It just look weird/bizzare sometimes cause in some soil like here people like to over-abuse and ruin things up.That's why i believe culture and the soil which attract the people .Not physical cover but things underneath.I always believe english world is a nice one and not savage like this .Cause most of the weird things and stupid idea in this language and soil can't be translated into english or translated into the closest meaning in a less harmed level which most reader and listener just feel not a big deal.That's why peopel in english word can have a so rich soul casue most of the time what they hear and receive is in a reasonable way or more positive i can say .God blessing !

It's stupid that people here get to study a lot for some common sense.The sickest thing is that they like other to give a credit themself of how hard they get to study.What's the point of that ?Don't know why they tend to live in extreme way.Either study and live like or nerd or just live like a dump and speak of something without common sense .Living with these people here.What kind of life could it be ?

Just see a video clip from TV in the lunch break about promoting tourism in the place.First of all,just feel strange why the clips need to be broadcast here so damn often.Maybe just another form of brainwashed education to make people here always think we are good and blah blah blah.But that do nothing to me .I don't go with these.Sometimes just feel like the more you do to draw others attention somehow inply that you are pathetics and you get nothing better to do.

Maybe people don't have life will behave like this.They live for the other ones.Make things obvious to make sure the others can see.Import the Disney to make them think this is their stuff and make it obvious that everyone will be there.Everyone know that this is not something of your and even they go there doesn't mean you are great becasue you have this.Seriously,who will care about you?Would you stop not to take any chances to be cocky and being stupid?Plus,Sick to listen the locals asking somethings stupid like."What do you think about here ?" ."It is the best right ?"."The food is nice right ?"."How many local language that u can speak?" to the foreigner.If the answer is negative .They keep bugging around and ask why this why that?If they get positive answer .They just feel like even the foreign people is positive about here and that mean we are the greatest and the others are smaller than us.Franly speaking ,they just try to say the things you wanna believe.It just like a kid always bugging around mama to recognize what he do until mama say yes .Actually they don't care about you .They live their own life.They are from west world.They get coolest mind to live not beacsue of you .Come on .Just stop being stupid .If you don't believe .

I just think sometimes that when you go to foreign place .The people there don't even bother have you go this or go there .They don't even care if you can speak their language and if u can't speak that .They appreciate the way you are.They won't tell you in a tone like "you should learn their language.You should do this or that".They don't care if you like the place or not .They don't live because what the other's think and other's word .That's what i believe what the happy people life is!
I always remind myself not to cave into this stupid mind just becasue i am from here.
My view is definetly lot different from the people here and i don't know why.But i pretty sure i get rational enough to see the people here are really weird .So just jeep the eyes open and suck in the experience .

Everyday deal with the same shit at work.People appreciate the others just by the values of the other carry .Just like they behave in few different ways regard to the persons tey are talking to.They only be nice to those only if they can offer him back something or do them a great favour.Or they will keep avoid you or talk in a mean way to you.The most unbelievieable things are that they don't get self-esteem at all when they are talking to someone which they believe they can get something back from then persons .They fake the fucking smile and nod like a robot.God damn it!Act stupid face and play innocent just to take advantage over some stuff.Asking all those stupid questions with no point at all.But what's more is that they really think they are funny and talkative.Don't know what make them to think they are important.Keep thinking they are now living in modern life,lot of malls.Wait a second ! If you think carefully ,those stuff is not orginated from here.No matter how much you have it .It doesn't match cause they not belong to you.Don't you people insult when you keep shouting how important you are in the world.Better ask yourself what have you contribute to the world .What great job you have done to make people life's easier.The world is always west west world .No doubt !

This things are not directed at anyone here in particular but referring to the major group of people here.I don't know why people here behave in this weird way.Just feel that this kind of stupid culture brainwashed one and other.Every single day see the people caved to the peer pressure of doing these shit.That'sone of the reason i don't wanna committed with the people here.

People being phony and nosy just to make sure they know the others more and seeing what they can get from them and take advantage.What the fuck!Just like the life is going back and never grow ever no matter how fancy life they are living.For them life is just like a ATM.Keep cash in and cash out without think.Life for them is just having rather than feeling,enjoying and having fun in bewteen as life goes.They are planned in this way from the first day they born.Never know what life is and they don't deserve what life offer cause they have no faith besides eat and shop.They think they own everythings.Someday they will realize they end up with nothing and regret they know nothing about the world around.They spend their whole fucking life in the malls.That's fair .A nation like this with no religious,no faith.They are just born to enslave themself to make money and know nothing.Do the things only if it can make money and study the things just for making money.Things in their hand can made to be this shallow meaning.They are just slave for money .What they can do is live like a copycat ,keep buying and copying other style and other taste and waste their life not to explore the marvelous of things around is.Noone will care .Like i said before.They don't belong to this world.They know nothing at all.If you ever get the chances to deal with this people .Don't agrgue with them.Give him a charity smile.Cause they are just the ultimate loser ever.They will only regret that they never get a better chance to live their life before die That's good they can always live in this shallow way cause they always live in their own chinatown.Bummer !!The world still get lot of cool place tho cause God is still blessing them .Lucky them !!What i really hope is the people outside these weird chinatown will never need to think and live this way!

Lost sleep last night.Wake up early and head to work.The job is the same i expect as yesterday.That's okay cause i get used to these.

Kind of sleepy during work.Probably becasue i miss my coffee.I am sure once i start working here i don't get better chances on internet to talk with my lovely friend.It require shifting duty.Talking with my friends in internet is the things i feel most comfortable to do when i am living here.Somehow it is gone now.Hope i can still write them mail if possible.Hope this type of life will not be too long.

Get a job offer yesterday.They require me to have a full coverage body-check.Seems i don't have a big problem of my body till now .Yet,the doctor are rather doing a sloppy job.He seems like rushing to something that sometimes he is not placing the equipment at the exact place .Make me kind of uncomfortable and pain.

The job is not actually my priority.I don't expect it is a interesting work.Work long hours.Strict rountine procedures.Hope one day can get some job that can work with foreign people.At least i am sure they appreciate the way you do a thing,they appreciate your common sence to get things done even it is not the way it is written in the routine way,they don't make a small things into a big deal.They take things as easy as it can be.The most important things is that you don't have to be enslaved and act stupid in front to those so-called "Big people ".Whatever .No way to change this culture here.Get used to it and keep pray to leave here one day .

It's been a month that i lost contact with Tarn.Maybe i shouldn't overreact about this cause she get her own life out there but i just can't help worrying.Still remember our last conversation is about that she doesn't feel feel and need to check up in hospital.Ever since that she has been disappearing.

When ones disappearing it either be something happening to them or they get something to hide.I do hope neither of those happen to her.I don't know what is is all about.She never act in this way before.

I try all the possible way to contact her but still no luck.It would be bad to lose a friend in this way.Just looking for your soon return.If you get any problem or anything wrong.Just keep me posted.You get nothing to hide inside.

Another great show after CSI(Crime scene investigation).A drama about FBI agent Don Eppes (Rob Morrow), who recruits his mathematical-genius brother, Charlie (David Krumholtz) to help the Bureau solve a wide range of challenging crimes in Los Angeles. The two brothers take on the most confounding criminal cases from a very distinctive perspective .How the confluence of police work and mathematics provides unexpected revelations and answers to the most perplexing criminal questions.A brand new idea on TV drama again.

What I think without a second thought is that .If this idea is copyed and further distored in this sick city to produce.The story propably go in the way look like a nerdy mathematics show and how these genius scoring chicks by what they do.After that a bunch of stupid asshole rushed to act like a cool guy and blah clah.

Only people living in a cool way in a soil with independent thought are able to do this and peopel can really appreciate what is inside.God bless western culture from day one and hope he always do!

Have a short conversation with Amy before heading to interview.Turn out that she is not going to wait for me any longer.I know this will happen one day just can't believe it happen that soon.I still believe that it will can move to further step.These days i have been thinking how to make things happen and how i can make a bigger move.

Um.. I don't upset at all.We are miles away and it will be irresponsible to keep someone you like to wait you forever without you promising the next time to meet.No doubt i'd like us to meet as soon as i can.But shit happen.A lot of things attached to me and i am not that easy to go when i want.Maybe i never could

What really pissed me off today is the interview ?I don't know what is in the interviewer's mind in here.Sometimes they just want to listen what they wanna believe in.Something like they are always looking for the same answers from everyone and pick the candiate that can pleased them the most.Always make up a pissed off face seems like their job offer is a charity.We are oweing them a stuff that we have to be small everytime we talk to them.Ask you waiting in a conference room for an hour without any notification what happen.Always postpone the meeting date to fool you like you ought to be availiabe any time for them in order to get this job.Just keep asking you to wait their call with no clarification of the closing dead line.There is one candiate Henry who sit next to me in the room.Back from new zealand this summer .Complaint about the situation in here.He complain that if you are not gotta picked for the post in NZ.The secretary will send you a reply letter about the rejecction and appology.The boss and candidate is equal during interview there and they respect the way you are not respect the sample answer that you are donna deliver to them.etc

To conclude .In case you gotta be in this soil to living .You gotta be strong and be a fighter to deal with this shit everytime as it comes.

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

–Quotation from Frank Outlaw