Things get distorted here.Gotta look beyond the obvious

It feel good when i get a chance to see the children in the park whose mothers would de-crust their sandwiches for them.Tear the crust. And feed the birds.But somehow it never happen here as I see.Something only happen in someplace easyily but someplace can never made it

Decisions are the yarn to the sweater of life. The decisions we make inevitably weaves the pattern of our sweater, and whether or not it will turn out a successful piece of clothing.Make a decision and stick to it, and be confident with the choice. That's the problem. Being confident. Until someone come over and try hard to dissapproves of my choice, I backslide,rethink, and regret. Why it is always like that?Whether if I realize it or not, these are MY CHOICES for MY LIFE, and maybe, just maybe.Maybe I was right to get rid of MR. So and so.Just stick into the list of what my faith truly is.Neither regret nor rethink my decision because it is just that, MY DECISION!This requires hard decisions.Even if there will not be any nice sweater being knitted.But it will always be best of oneself and you just like having that!

Beautiful prostitutes
Handsome pimps
Cooing in the night
sweat ridden dirty sheets
hang over balcony airing out
Disease ridden air
breathe on me
breathe on me
Herbal scents of weed
Floating above me
Lead pierces through
cluttered wind
Shoutings from the whorehouse
nextdoor, women
girls
babies
baby
Hey baby
clients, rapists, purchase
souls, buy love, buy acceptance.
Trash ridden streets,
ornament the neighborhood
Snow falls on hands,
and sucks thorugh nose.
Want some fun?
Broken beer bottles
shoved in the soil.
Roaches kiss the toes of the babies
mice nip the noses of the babies
Torn window shades
expose beautiful faces
in a whole new darkness.

So today is valentines day.How many of us get love?I just look around and easy to see we get someone but How many of them really get connected and really can talk to ?Are those someone we need or loved ?Or we just get conditional accompany ?What i see is that most of them just want to have someone becasue they think they will get "lonely".In fact they get someone and they are still "lonely" deep in their heart cause it just can't be connected.No foundations at all.For today, i just see people here treat the day as a exchange of gift.I don't know why every special day in here is just another day of exchanging gift which make every days are the same.It's about a day for rommance and refresh the sweet memory with the one you are being with.Of course, everyday is a good day for lover .You won't love them less even it is not valentines day,if that is someone you really love.It just a day for celebration for the chances two of them get a chance to meet and go through some stuff which is different from the other one.What I think to make life count is not something physical but things like a good love and the experience that it attatched.Isn't it ?

BTW,to be less serious over this.Happy valentines to everyone with or without the significant other!For the one who did,cherish it,for the ones without anyone, look around,it closer than you think it is !

Love is peculiar I guess
It tugs at you, pulling you in a different direction.
Reopening a social lasceration with each cutting move
Alluring you to the most obscure of things and people.
There is a fine science behind karma and chemistry instantly,
faster than a bolt of lightning strikes the midnight sky,
there is an electricity that is hard to deny, you can feel it
It's beautiful and at the same time sorrowful.



"One feels that one is loved. Feeling is impressed on everything and traverse space. A letter is a spiritual thing; it is a faithful echo of the speaking voice; so much so that finer souls esteem it among the richest treasures of love."
-----Pere Goriot, Balzac

This is an early Sunny morning.Appointment for the job interview at 8 am.It is some job about cabin crew work again.Like what i ever experienced .This type of job interview is totally fake and time-wasting.Cause they already get the candiate before recruitment.The whole interview process just to be show to public how they follow regular western system.I can tell if you can never make it without a "extra-ordinary offer" to them or you get relatives working there.Otherwise, you are just wasting the time doing that or like self-comforting that "it is just a matter of time not a matter of chances ".

Didn't feel really serious about it cause i know what the result it is.Get some time to kill before going work in the afternoon. Hang out with Rachel who i know after the interview.She just quit the job before going to apply this job.Talk for almost 3 hours before working.She is a bit upset casue she know "the truth" of this kind of "interview" after all.We all have a good time talking i guess .Just end up desperate about "the things" can't be changed.

What i think that i gain from today is another "experience" and one "good chat with a one good friend" i guess .Nothing more !

To say “yes” is to follow the mass, to do what is commonly expected. To say “no” is to deny the crowd, to be set apart, to reaffirm yourself.

Originality defines the essence of simplicity and the beauty of reality