Things get distorted here.Gotta look beyond the obvious

Wake up with a dizzy head this morning. More specific speaking it is noon . Danielle wanna do the un-finished package of beach massage which she get an hour left over since yesterday. Me and Shakira just wanna stay on the beach on the corner for more sunshine and more swim.

It's been high tide and wavy out there in the sea. We just decide to have another beach breakfast on the same spot as yesterday do. We hope to see that gay guy there as we knows that they gonna stay there.We are looking for roommates to replace Danielle spot since she is leaving this afternoon to BKK.Unfortunately they are not there .Probably they leave the Island early this morning.

I guess there gotta be something that bother shakira's mind. I though she is moody of someone or something with her long faces. We start to talk about how is things go in this trip. Those persons we meet and she is upset with some words that she hear from somebody there. I just want her to get totally relax and let things go. We are there for a real good vacation. Aren't we?

It's been chilling today. The sun is up there but not hot enough to heat up the air around. The breeze is kind of chill.We just lay down for couples of hours .Sleeping on those white sand with the dogs from the nearby store sleeping next to us. Lay down and read a book,sleep and then back to the books.I just love it so much.

Shakira's wanna walk all the way back to the the pier to get a phone card for calling back to Sweden.I though I shouldn't go with.I guess I am some reasons that bored her.I know she is looking for her "location trip" and she just can't be there take care of me in the return of "losing her private time".I was thinking like I should hang out alone and let her look at the things around.

So we join again in the evening after I exchange some dollars there. We meet another gay guys,June and his buddy that we dance and chill with last night.They were just in the restaurant on our way to the pier. We were invited to sit there with them for the dinner.before the party started.Shakira's just get all the joy back in the dinner .I guess it 's because she hasn't stick with her people for couple of days.She used to told me that hanging with the funny day guys just attached with her very best friend where he is somewhere outside Thailand..I am happy to see she get those smiles on again with her sparkling eyes.That make her just gorgeous and she is need those joys out from Sweden too.

Tonight is little bit crowd than other days. This is also my first time to have the new year comes on the beach. I am so looking forward for that. Everyone are sitting on the beach lap waiting for the times. The dance floor is fill with all those party people. Air is heated up by those shaking body. A couple of fireworks is out there on the beach .It's good that those firework is bought from whoever want to have it.It just different than those other places .Government has to do the firework and manage it .They even have to tell you where to go and stuff. Like they even control what you want to see what they think it is fun or good for you. I just like it here .It doesn't have to be big firework. Everyone has to "feel good " for that .For those just like it, buy it play it. For those that want to dance the ass off in new year. Just do it with every beat. I just fucking hate all those regular things and control over you .Just like you are idiot and they put your mind on you educating you what to do. I just hate that there in my home. It is a good experience I bee there for the new year. People are so connected, have fun, hugs and exchange blessing. Share foods and drinks with someone they don't even know. This feeling is extraordinary nice when the whole world outside is cold. Here is just so damn warm. People just do you some good without asking you something back.This night I just feel like I am part of them and people can somehow unite.

It was the second days on the Island. A little bit late wake up at 10 and little headache from the liquor bucket last night. Sharkira come to our rooms at 8, waiting us for a beach brunch. We walk towards the end of the beach coastline on the Island. There get more shallow water than the other end. That means there get more sandy area for putting tables for business there.

Shakira stick to the Thai food as always which is best for her. The burger set and the BBQ is good enough for me and Danielle. We are talking about swimming right after it. It seems that they don't believe my story that I have been drown when I am 7. I don't think I can do swimming or floating somewhere the ground can't be touch. I just get all tense up and sink. I think I need to practice the shuffle feet because the beach in Thailand is just too hard to resist. Crystal clear water and the blue greenish water sparkling on the water surface are perfect. Danielle just recall those memory a years ago when she goes to diving on Bali, Indonesia. She mention that the tourism there is just perfect as Thailand too .People there in local can speak lot of language which is impossible not to talk to them and they smile equally nice. That's the point I think. She say there is one guy that volunteer for diving class to people or someone just teach it but they don't really charge for full prices. They just would like everyone there have fun and enjoy. That's why these south-east Asian country just famous than elsewhere than Asia. Probably because their money is less money stuffed. The essence for hospitality, smiling which They just born to have it but not pay to fake it. Simple smile just make things turn around and work things up.

We split after the brunch. Danielle want to go the other end of beach of where we living to do the reading and sun tan alone. Me and Shakira just stay the same way further from her. We just stay our afternoon on the beach. Do nothing like a bum. I can't remember how much I did move. Probably just one or two turn over for position switch. The Sun is strong without some thick clouds. The beach is so quiet .The most "noisy" one will be those water current hit on the rocks and the birds singing. The dogs on the beach is just more busy than most people there do.They keep digging a hole for themselves to embedded themselves inside.

We join with Danielle for dinner again. We all get free entertainment, the fire spinning again. They add some more combination of movement tonight which is more difficult and vigorously than yesterday night.

I meet those people from the club on yesterday just on the next table of us. They are a group of British and French which working on north for volunteering work on the Laos refugee. I think it is a good job and interesting one. At the same time they can stay Thailand for a real long times. I like the Island as it like a small community. We are just each others neighbor and you can easily meet them again in restaurant beach or the club. Catching up is easy and there the conversations go with a hello as the starter. We don't have to exchange contacts because we meet day by day right on the same spot. Life can be simple and easy if you want it to be. We just bring most troubles to ourself. Sometimes it just nice we live the old way. Less is more !

It's funny that most of the friends whom I really talk with. I mean like you really talk the staff from bottom your heart. Exchange ideas are both from internet. I believe that you can find some soul mates or real buddy from internet. It just depends on how you get it started. When I looking back time when I am still in College. Peoples are just so fucking pretending and I get lots of free time there. I make couple of good friends that time from the internet .Since I spend all the hours on it. Me and Shakira start talking for like more than 4 yrs.We are like talking whatever we want to.We have been talking when should we meet in real.Since she is always there in Sweden living and we don’t have a match time by the times we are there. We’ve been talking to make it real this time.I can’t wait more years for this

She was there in the airport for so early with all those backpack. We meet up and a big hug before heading to Ko Samet Island. We are just like explore the place together like we are both tourist. Of course she is local there but didn’t back home for couples for years. I am always advising her to move back home. It is just perfect and many places she can fit in there. I am always looking forward to move there some days so that I get her as neighbor or something. I think we have something in common. The way of thinking and all sorts of mind set.

We leave the bus terminal at 1 pm.The bus to Bang Phe takes like 3 hours. And we need 40 mins of boat ride to the opposite side to Samet.The conversation is good .We are just talking like what we always does on internet.She is just checking over those songs I put in I-Pod.About what songs are from her .which one is she like and etc.So the 3 hrs road trip is short like it is an hours .It goes so quick with a good conversation and the up-beat songs for the “pre-clubbing” tonight .That’s what I call it.

We have to take a van from the pier of the Island to Ao Phit.The van is same like those I used to take in Pattaya. Except it is better cause it don’t have a cover on the back of the truck. The sunlight and the breeze can just in touch with you without a barrier. We are talking to someone on the opposite of our seat. Her name is Danielle, Canadian lady with the backpack on and the lonely plant on her hands. We are just discussing what are the chances to get a room there. We just assume the rooms gonna be full cause we arrived there almost like 6 pm. Someone that go earlier has occupy most of them. If you want some 2 or 3 story height guest house. You have to stick on the pier side.

If you want to live alongside the beach coastline. You can go some free camping if you have a tent. I see most of them pick a good location for camping. If not, there got plenty of Bungalows instead of hotel. That’s what a beach life should be for me. We just walk back and fro near the beach side since all rooms are booked. All three of us decide to stay together for the coming days and share the rooms. It’s good to make some new cool friends and share stuff. We just get a bungalow somewhere middle on the slope. It is all wooden made and surrounded with trees and dead leaves over the ground. We get company, mosquito when we are there. I believe that is because the tasty blood from my pretty friends and they are scented well and those colorful tops. We just go to a shop for some lotions for mosquito block. But as far as I see they sell only one brand. I told shakira that it may not be working since it is the only shop on this side of the island. Everyone using this brand and I guess the mosquito somehow build up some resistant to the lotions. Anyway it still working surprisingly which I think it is good enough

We unpack out stuff quickly since we all need a bite. We pick some restaurant which is on the beach. They have a real big carpet on the sandy beach. All the triangular Thai style cushions are put on the carpet. It is not a big one but big enough to support the main back. With the white candles on. The weather is very good. A little bit chill in the evening. The white sands there is dry and not sticky when you put the feet in it.So we just talk a bit of each other like introduction to ourselves. Danielle have been here in Thailand for more than a years. She is considering to make a extension for 6 months more.She is a gymnastic teacher there in BKK.I just think western race can just live all around the world. Since they are cool enough to make themselves to fit it. Money is not their priority there that much. They just want experience , joy of life attached with them from time to time. It not applies to people in my places. If they have to be somewhere else living .They do it because big money,” fancy job” and even they need a lot of authority like someone owe them lots. They just get those entire bored mind which affecting the others. I just hope they don’t go fuck up the other places. Leave the other side of the worlds alone. That’s best for everyone

It can’t be bored on this Island .The loud speaker is on the beach with all rock and roll and Bob Marley tunes shuffling. When I look at the far end to the beach. It just like a human wave is rolling over me. Since everyone is moving with the beats. Together with the island people performing the fire spinning. The spinning is so quick and they have to move their body to follow the fire track. Everyone is screaming and all the flash in on towards them.

Shakira is a followers for Thai foods. She mention that she has every meal with Thai food no matter where. And she can’t eat the pork since she is Muslim. She just have some prawn rice an some spicy sontum.I and Danielle just allergy to nuts and seafood. So we get some other else.

We go for clubbing after dinner. It’s my first time for the beach time party. Kind of relaxing .The music style is little different with the city. The music are Thai songs first and then hip hop one when the crowds are in. Here just do the Reggae and hip hop next People just have all those shorts, tops and flip flop on the dance flood. It’s nice with such simplistic stuff. Shakira mention to me that we can both have a “location trip” here if the chemistry works. I think that is a term between us. I just hope she has a real good time there. Just want to see her happy with all those sparkling big eyes and big smiles on all time. We have couple of icy beers and few buckets of Samson bucket’s before I and Danielle back home for rest. Anyway, I kind of like the bucket stuff. It really put me to a good sleep..

I was reading a funny articels a days before about communications.It turns out that 60% of all human communication is nonverbal, body language; 30% is your tone, so that means 90% of what you're saying ain't coming out of your mouth.

It's good to know that.Especially when I know that those who gonna talk bad can't use the terms "misunderstanding" to blame it on others fault.Which it is a common practice with those people around me daily.I am sick of them when they use it as a excuse.Try to make them look better even they had had say something nasty to hurt somebody. Peoples are capable to see what your mind really is when you gonna speak.That is for dam certain! Misunderstanding does happen and I am not trying to rule them out.I am sure it never be an obstracle for one and the others to talk.Even they are using two different languages.Just what you do is pick up the right tones ,eye contact and how it is look inside when you gonna deliver your thoughts.People can sense how you talk and to some level they get a general picture of it even not point by poin in details.