Things get distorted here.Gotta look beyond the obvious

"You can discover what your enemy fears most by observing the means he uses to frighten you."

It's good to have Halloween once in a year that I can put aside my normal fears of life and choose to temporarily be scared of the things that go bump in the night again.Even this virtual fears is much lesser than the real one that comes in life
Thanks for those who creat a day like Halloween that people spend so much time creating the artificial fear, that they find themselves forgetting about the real ones.

Have you ever in love with something that you treasure the most and you will try every effort that you could possibly to protect them even the power is so little regard to the power that ruinning that.

I mean sometimes it appear to you in its best that you will consider yourself if you are good enough for getting that or you will equally happy even you not having that but a chances to know or see it once !!!

Kind of contradictory right? But that's what i always think about somewhere i like and someone i loved .

19th Oct 2006

A moody Sunny Day cause i am leaving this beloved land and all the peoples inside.
Getting out of this place with a extraordinary strong cohesive human and human relationship strength (Relationships in all kind).

It appear to be perfect to me in all aspects .Everyone’s happy even you not doing anything. Being there will be.The magic of the soil will keep you smile and make you let things go.You will find yourself that happiness are in this simply way that you have never imagine ever!

The massive power from the surrounding will keep you humble and being a highly tolerance groups. And you love doing that without anyhesitation. It's not somewhere perfect out there because the Thais never need to be and people still love it. Even the coldest heart will melt there in some certain level I believe! If someone really have go through my preceding blog entry. It is not hard finding that I keep mention that.Just because i don't wanna forget of what i love and adore

Jane told me that she will try catching me up one more time before i leave. She try every effort taking a day off since she seldom doing it and it is unlikely to do so as she told. She told me she will take me to the airport with her family Van after she change the bracing wire at the dentists. I'd really appreciated she is doing that just from her heart. I can feel it is real and warm when you get the offer. We meet at Mo chit at 11 in the car park next to the mega car park.

She get a little lost since she don't do driving a lot and this is her very first time going straight to the Suvarnabhumi Airport. Driving to chonburi and visit the zoo will be the route she drives the most. I just told her that don't worry if you lost, I don't wanna leave here either and I'd love to go to chonburi for sure. She is a lovely and cute friend of mine. She sing along with the song that radio is playing. And it is funny to see her raise her eyebrow when she hesitate with the road sign direction.

The feeling grow strong but the time is running out which make me feel bad about it. Hard to say goodbye but it has to be. Sucks !!

Day 3 of the trip, Wake up at 8 something, Check the ticket price to Hua Hin from Hualalopong station. It is a good form of transport to there. Sometimes the more convenient you can doing something lose the joy behind it, just like one can take a van directly head to the beach but it skipped the nice scenery since the train go over lot of rural place and many locals from other city take train as well. Taking van just lose its uniqueness of the places.

The station is full of people, it is one of the most busy port to and from BKK. The Ticket price is about 237 baht which take 5 hours there. The trains to there suppose to be at 1 in the afternoon and the return one start at 6 in the midnight. I was informed by someone that it rains cat and dog down south. It probably miss the pretty beach and the lovely sunshine visiting there. He advised that I should come again on November and the early Autumn .Seriously, I’d love to come again. The reason i want to go there so bad is that it has absolutely the very very long costal lined beach which is really rare to see elsewhere and the crystal clean water and the white sand. Probably i catch the places at the wrong time. Sigh ...

Since today is Sunny Saturday (Wish Hua Hin is the same).Walk around the Hualalopong neighborhood before going to the weekend market. There has been lot of old classic building and European style tea house down there, which is little different with downtown BKK. Arrive the market at almost noon time. I have been here for the third time, this time included. As read from the lonely planet that here is as large as eighty football field sized. I am not sure if the information is accurate. It seems to me that here is growing from time to time. I can barely finish walking less that a quarter of the places each time. The reason is probably i get distracted from time to time. At first i was sticking from row to row so that i can finish section by section. But it is too hard to focus on only one row while another row at the junction will draw your full attention and you will go there because it is hard to get back the same store once you leave the section. Just like a maze, once you get it there, the joy of finding your own path take times. I can't afford to lose my track to there if it is nice and appealing. Yet if you get enough energy for a walk. You can stay there from 8 in the morning till it close at 8 and you won't get bored in it but love it there .

Here is no mall. And a completely different feeling walking inside that mall failed to offer you. Here is like where the whole Thailand ,food, culture, live style all together convergent at a point. An exotic and remarkable Thai culture open the visitors start from here .Just like the place and people themselves, it is a massive sensation stimulation at the same time. The spicy and sweet, herbal and gasoline scented air (which is lively),the strong hip hop and up to beat Thai music broadcasting, the rhythmic Thai intonation and their dialog, with the lovely smile that you see from boys and girls, the heat from the warm hearted people around. You can tell it is so damn special that you won't forget and you will come back the land again without anyone persuade and tell you to .

Another reason that i like small store than mall is that each individual is different with others even they may sell stuff more or less similar. The way they operate and effort they put is different and you can feel the different. In here, you can feel the joy of shop even you are no shopper. You will be happy just to communicate with them with the stuff you see in store and they are just happy for you visit even you are not buying. I believe that there is some word means the feeling about it. Is "joy -oriented" towards life even close to this noble living philosophy stage? I am not sure but even no words for it. The feeling will swing along in your heartstring.

Spend almost 5 hours just walking to see the domestic lamp decoration and furniture making. Silk production ,Thai style dressing ,music stand. Surely it is not enough for it. I guess I will come again tomorrow for second hand books store or else i have to wait one more week which i can't be here at that time.

Just know a Japanese that born and live there. Her Thai name is Dui. She invite for a meet before she go to Pattaya for a short holiday in Kao San. Arrived there a bit early, like walking around those store for tattoo. A lot of nice pattern hang at the front of the door sized window.

Together, is her colleagues in the pub. Not those hip hop style one .Just music and a drink. Together with her colleagues and few Nepalese friends. Look like Jay Sean a bit. It was a good and relaxing evening and a great chance get to know them!

Sometimes i think of whether if something better or what should be deserved will come to me one day or for a short moment that make me still believe so.Everytime I start to re-constructing the ideas what i always believe in and something else is out there somewhere,however the negative pressure keep backfiring on me so much that project a completely mirror image of the ideas itself.Having illusions that ever pop into my mind is so good to mentioned but it been taken away so soon.......

Maybe it shouldn't even get started to happening ...

I feel most intimate with my books for the very simple reason that books have a voice. And that voice does not speak at you, it speaks within you--in your mind. Everything takes place within the mind, and that in itself is intimacy incarnate.